My Existance

What is existance to all of us? It is kind of weird asking this question at this hour as you may think that this is some kind of joke or a drunker man asking a stupid question (Apparently i dont drink). Well, this question suddenly appeared to me since i have nothing to think about now. When the question appear to me, I suddenly thought of the past when I was a baby that I felt my presence even though my eyes was closed. I bet that people do also felt that way. Like you felt that you have experience a situation before, in your dream or even in reality.
Existance is not only talking about both feet on the ground and there you are. It is about the presence of one person in the heart. Sometimes you may felt your friends’ or your relatives’ presence but plans to ignore him or her as he or she is an annoying person or people you dont like. It is an unevitable feeling but still, this is called existance. An existance of feeling. That person will eventually felt that its presence is no longer a concern to other people but yet felt that one day somebody will eventually noticed him even though others may neglect him. One day he will show anyone that he is even better than anyone in the future. However, this might not be true enough. Though he or she is successful, he may not feel happy but more jealous over the others. Sometimes things are what is mean to be as it can be. For example, I dont know who or anyone feel about my presence but at least somebody are care enough to notice even though others reject me.
Well, this is all i got to say about today. Hope that those who are reading this… please do not think that I am that kind of person who is lonely. It is just something that I watches everyday even in the street. (Not everyday lah)

My Existance

What is existance to all of us? It is kind of weird asking this question at this hour as you may think that this is some kind of joke or a drunker man asking a stupid question (Apparently i dont drink). Well, this question suddenly appeared to me since i have nothing to think about now. When the question appear to me, I suddenly thought of the past when I was a baby that I felt my presence even though my eyes was closed. I bet that people do also felt that way. Like you felt that you have experience a situation before, in your dream or even in reality.
Existance is not only talking about both feet on the ground and there you are. It is about the presence of one person in the heart. Sometimes you may felt your friends’ or your relatives’ presence but plans to ignore him or her as he or she is an annoying person or people you dont like. It is an unevitable feeling but still, this is called existance. An existance of feeling. That person will eventually felt that its presence is no longer a concern to other people but yet felt that one day somebody will eventually noticed him even though others may neglect him. One day he will show anyone that he is even better than anyone in the future. However, this might not be true enough. Though he or she is successful, he may not feel happy but more jealous over the others. Sometimes things are what is mean to be as it can be. For example, I dont know who or anyone feel about my presence but at least somebody are care enough to notice even though others reject me.
Well, this is all i got to say about today. Hope that those who are reading this… please do not think that I am that kind of person who is lonely. It is just something that I watches everyday even in the street. (Not everyday lah)

Losing a friend

Really heart broken when a friend decides to leave you. Especially in great depressed time when you need a friend to talk to. My coursemate is leaving the pharmacy course already. He is thinking of taking engineering course from other college. My this coursemate has been together with me for nearly a year and i known him since when we started this course. Most of the time after classes, we usually hang out together and eat. Most of the time is two of us because the rest like to group themselves and we are being ignored. So we seldom speak to them. Now he is leaving and i am alone. Now I have to mix the rest. It will be very tough because i dont know what they dislike about. Most of them ignored me whenever they see me. Not even a hi. Wow! This is going to be tough because got no friends to have group discussion. Usually we have to because like that we can study. If not, I cant motive myself to study. Moreover, next sem got lab session and need three people in a group. So it looks like i will be the last person to be picked by another members if not even group members. Moreover, any anoucements to be made cant be informed to me easily. Very tough for me, man!!! feeling like crying but couldnt cry. thats all, like people says, easy come easy go.

How to Dispense and Compound your drug?

Dispensing and Compounding Subject is the most difficult, troublesome and the worst experiences I have ever had. At first, I thought it is going to be like you can take your time doing the experiment but it is dreadful. I have to rush to keep up with other classmates but time is running out. We have to mix the two different drug together and have to know every type of ingredient that it is put in the lab. That reminds me of Hell Kitchen. Have to know what mix with what. whether they mix together or not. If not, I could have gotten zero for it. We are given 4 prescription which we have done the theoritical measurement and they will ask not to do one of it and given a new presc. Doing all the 3 presc. like a total mess. All the chemical was all over the table and that is given marks also. But when the new presc is given to us, it is like I dont know anything about it. I suddenly dont know how to count the measurement for each ingredient. Most of my classmate have panic attack. Lecturers shouting and screaming like in Hell Kitchen of course not bad words like from Chef Ramsy. So I didnt care about the measurement and just simply pour all the ingredient inside and mix it. Luckily it turn out look like all my classmate had. So I assumed it is ok I guess. But they say that they are going to test it to ensure that it is safe. So what to do. I pray that the medicine is ok and safe. Hopefully no patient is going to die after taking my medicine. After that day, I have to check my results in the lab for my other lab section. That is when I meet my classmate in the lab for the same prac. While I was checking, she asked me about other sub matter that she took with me. When I came close to her, she has the eye that attracts me. It looks so beautiful but I look back because it is too tempting. I almost caught by her beautiful eyes. Before this, I have never met her or spoke to her in private before. I dont know why I look back. Now when I think back, I regretted that I didnt look longer.

Unexpected words

Hi here i write again! Now what to writte? Oh unexpected words. Wonder from who? Oh from my head of school. Today like any ordinary day, started my classes. Oh ya, firstly I have to meet my junior to hand in my lab report (actually it is a tradition, senior gives their report to their junoir and the junior becomes a senior to another junior and so on) Have to rush to college casue she cant wait already. Then while waiting class, I went in to the head of school and consult her about the subject to take. Earlier the sem, I have registered the subject that i take but I have some doubts because it is like this, last sem I failed one subject and have to take this sem. Each sub has credit hours and max hours can take is 20. The sub I take is 2 credit hours and have to drop one sub (which is 4 credit hours) to take it in the next year. But the total credit hour for next year is 17 credit so total hour is 21. So I wonder that I can appeal to the head to add credit hours but she said cannot because only max 20 credit hours so I have to drop other sub ( which is 3 credit hours). After all this, she asked me how much is my accummulative marks so I said 54 something. Then she said that i have chances that I will failed this sem. It is really unexpected from her, i mean, she is the head of school. Instead of encourge me to do well, she mock me as if that she is better than me, so proud man. I have nothing to say and I just walk off. ignored her what she said. Curse her man. Even some of the senior do not like her, cause she is so demanding and makes ur studying like a living hell.

Orientation day 2

Hurray!! Orientation day has come at last. I really enjoy the orientation day like in the very long time. As some of the senior said, this was the only time in the uni that they cab really enjoy. I was assigned to be a security member and have to block people from coming into the hall but instead of doing my job, I went and participate in the event ( of course partly doing my job). In the morning, the first event was ice-breaking. So the juniors had to shout the group name out loudly but some of them didn’t pronounce the group name properly because it is a medicine name. Some were easier name like viagra, panadol, etc. But, at least everyone got each other back. Some of the seniors help them. After that, the game has begun. This game is a bit weird than usual. Each group had been given 50 straws, a tape and a pair of scissors. Each group were divided into 2 more sub group and they must build a one meter bridge using straws. Each subgroup had to assign one member to one station, which is one meter apart, and discuss how to build the brigde. It will be judge on its stability and creativity. Wow, it was so fun and it was so rushing. We were given 30 minutes to build the bridge. After that, the brigdes had to be join together. Some of the juniors has build an unstable bridge and some like moutains, some crossed under the sea without any idea of a bridge like a railway track. It was hilarious and fun. Then, came the lunch but i was given few minutes to eat cause I had to perform a korean dance (in a group of course not a alone). This korean group that sang this song is not the 80s or 90s song. It is more modern. The song is broken heart by coyote group (maybe u should check out. they have a video in youtube). The floor was slippery for one of my members and she has to put up her pant everytime she done one moves (she is very hot you know. wonder why she wear such a short and loose pant when she perform?). She almost embrassed herself but she did get over it. After that, there comes the fat lady singing. We didn’t sing very well especially the boys (Who me? Of course I sang very well like an angel). Later, slide presentation about my class. (I wasn’t inside) Some was very funny. You see? It was one and the only day that you enjoy your uni life. Oh Yes, Now I know why they don’t like me. Cause I create Lame Jokes and talk lame things. Leave any comment for this post thank you.

Orientation day

Orientation day. I remember the first day when I enter the orientation day that is prepared by my seniors. Though it is boring at first and feeling embarass about meeting new friends, be it went well as it is goes. I took the post as a representative for one of the subject. My job is to print and photostat all the notes for my classmate. Every time when photostat finish the notes, I will chase the treasurer for the photostat notes like a ah long like that (Now I think she despised me). Most of the time I am quite quiet in the class and when I speak to a friend, most of the time is work, work, work like any new notes from the teacher, new books to use for the lecture, and etc. Nothing much to talk about other things. Whenever I met them at the cafe, I dont know what to speak. No idea. Now that make me like an idiot. Both of us stood there sliently without a word until the class starts. Most of my classmate are chinese edu by the way. We dont even hang out with each other. I have once confessed my feeling to my lab partner b4 (INDIRECTLY, OK) Now she has been moving away from me. Dont know why? Well, I am glad that you all are able to tell what is in your mind to the person you hate the most. Too bad I can’t. I don’t like people who don’t like me like some of my classmate. I dont know what they dont like about me. I still can’t figure it out. for the past one year, still I cant figure it out. I felt they I should ask them but I cant. I dont want to lose them as a friend whenever I ask for help from them. Tough decision. (Remind me of proposing to a woman, whether they accept me or not) How to keep in touch with them? I have thought do i have to take my own initiative to ask them. If were you, how you make friends from work or college? Wow, didnt realise that I have been writing a lot, I’ll let you know about the orientation in further future.

The End

Hi everyone! It is please that at least someone read my blog! Actually, thereis nothing so special in my life. sometimes, i have nothing to say because i am just too quiet. Exciting thing like birhtday party that i join in, I could not remember. Some thing like thought block. Just recently I am not in the mood celebrate rachel birthday because……… it sounded boring to me. i mean putting the face in the cake is too much. The cake is totally smash into something that doesn’t look like a cake. But however i have to play along with it. I feel sometimes whenever I hang out with them, i am not one of them any more. Sometimes whenever they ask me out, I have a funny thought that they are just took pity on me like i have not been invited by anyone before( Which in fact it is true). the other day when daryl ask that we should organize some trip I feel overjoyed but on the other hand, it looks like i can’t go at all because of my semester is starting already.  Well. it looks like this is my last blog posted. It is not that I trying to ask your pity on me or something like that. Don’t feel that i am complaining that i don’t have any real friends. It is just me. My mum said that i don’t hang out very often that i felt like that. I am writng this is because i have putting up to this for quite a while and i thought maybe i write this since nobody is going to read this anyway. Man,… this is embrassing. Oh well  Thank you for your support who ever reads this previously.( Hope nobody reads this)

Sorry so long i didn’t write

Gomenasai! so long i didn’t write already cause of exam. so far i am busy with my studies. so i don’t have time to write. well, today only can write cause i feel like lazing around after studying. Today is my classmate’s birthday. Quite fun…. However, the fun is so short. I finally can drive on my own!!!! Wow!! To say the fun cause i got to fetch my mum from the hospital. For those who don’t know, my mum is a nurse in Universiy Hospital. My mum will tell all sort of  cases every time she comes back. If i can recall, there was once.( for those who don’t want to know, please ignore it) The case is about a twin. However one of them was dead. that one was born without skeleton. All the hands was formed perfectly but only no bones. It is stuck at the placenta. So that’s for all today. Hope there is a comment about the case that i mentioned.

frustrating day, man!

what a day, forgot my moral project makes me forgot to study for my exam. another thing my exam is just two weeks left. so today i must started my project. worse of all, the title is Animal’s right. my part is on clothing. i didn’t know it woud be tough. i just started last two days ago. thinking of wat to write makes me fall sick. today i finish my project. what a relief. but then i wanted to sent the project to my friend. suddenly the com having problem with the internet so can’t sent it. i got so frustrated i sceam out. then i send by keeping it in the disket. cannot load. wat the heck man. then i save it in the pen drive. then sent it through the laptop. one thing was yesterday. my father’s friend got free ticket to watch TONY ORLANDO’s concert in genting highland live. his music is nice. his singging band, if i remember is david orlando( his brother, he is bald and good looking ), tony weir( old lady can sing wow!, she has been with the band for 45 years since 16 years old ), there is more can’t remember lah.well, that’s it for today